Thursday, October 1, 2009

Ondoy, Ondoy sa Balitaw (ang naganap sa San Roque)


Gabi ng Setyembre 25 sa taong kasaluykuyan, habang kami ng mga kasamahan ko mula sa trabaho ay kumakain dahilan sa gabi na natapos ang aming ganap, napansin ko ang matinding lakas ng ulan. Mula Fairview hanggang Timog sa Quezon City ay wala itong hudyat ng kapaguran. Mga bandang 4:00 ng madaling araw kami nagpasiyang magsi-uiwan. Pinagmamasadan ko pa rin ang mga mahahaba’t malalaking patak ng ulan mula sa taxing aking sinakyan. Hirap na hirap si manong na sumuong. Hindi ko alam kung dahil sa ulan nga o siya’y inaantok na. Nang marating naming ang tulay sa bayan ng Marikina, hindi ko agad nabigyan ng direksyon ang drayber dahilan sa pagkakagulat sa umaapaw na noong ilog sa ilalim nito. Nang malapit na kami sa dulo ng tulay saka ko nabatid na bigyan siya ng direksyon na kumanan sa J.P. Rizal St. Nakauwi ako bandang mag aalasingko na ng umaga.

Pagmulat ko ng aking mata ay bandang mga 9:00 ng umaga. Sabi ko, “Shet, puyat nanaman! Ok lang wala naman akong ganap ngayon bilang Sabado.” Malakas ang ulan. Nag agahan ako at matapos ay nagsurf sa internet. Sa pagkakataong ito’y malakas na ang ulan na may kasama ng kidlat ngunit wala ang kulog. Sabi ng aking tiyahin ay bibili raw lamang siya ng itlog sa tindahan para sa aming pananghalian. Makalipas ang mga sampung minuto at siya narito na muli sa bahay. Napansin kong may mga butil ng luha sa gilid ng kanyang mga mata na hindi ko madalas mabanaag sa kanya dahil nga siya’y aking kabaligtaran...kung ano’ng ikinalempot ko, siya naming ikinabrusko niya pero hindi siya mahilig sa kapwa babae, mailinaw ko lang. Kung kaya medyo nangiti pa ako at naibulalas na “Tita, bakit para kang naiiyak?” Nagpasiya siyang maligo at tunguhin ang ang kanyang tindahan 5 bloke mula sa amin.

Habang naliligo siya, narinig ko ang ilang kapitbahay na mabilis na nag-uusap. Para bang piyesta na uli sa amin eh kakatapos lamang nito noong nakaraang buwan. May kakayahan kasi akong makarinig mula sa malayo ng malinaw (bionic ears) pati makaamoy ng mainam. Bumaba ako at laking gulat ko na baha na ang harapan ng bahay namin!

Abot hanggang tuhod ang baha. Sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon sa aming mga naninirahan dito sa San Roque ay ngayon lamang kami binaha. Dali-dali akong umakyat at sinabi ang nagisnan sa aking tiyahin. Nagulat siya at tila ba nagkaroon ng kasagutan ang tinanong ko rin sa kanya kanina. Kumuha siya ng payong at agarang bumaba. Sumunod ako dala ang isa pa ring paying at noong kami ay nasa pinakalabas na ng bahay, hindi na kami makapaniwalang baha na nga ang buong barangay namin...may ilang karag-karag ang kanilang mga anak at kasangkapan, may ilan namang pabalik-balik lamang. Hiyaw ng isang balisang kapitbahay, “ hanggang bewang na kina Marci!” Iyon ang bahay ng congressman ng Marikina na ilang bahay lamang ang layo mula sa kinatatayuan ko. Matapos noon ay dali-dali akong bumalik ng bahay at sa laki kong gulat hanggang bewang na rin ang baha sa amin. Tinawag ko ang aking tiyahin na noo’y kinakausap pa ang ilan naming kapitbahay. Umugong na ang kotse ko na nakaparada sa harap ng bahay. Ganyan kasi yan kapag nababasa na ang pinto, parang umuuhang bata. Sinubukan kong tingan si Mercu (ang pangalan ng aking kotse) at tawagin na rin ang aking tiya. Sa ilang minuto na iyon ay nasa tiyan na ang lalim ng baha. Nabanggit pa ng tiyahin ko na habang pabalik siya ng bahay ay may nakasabay pa itong pusa o aso, hindi na raw siya sigurado. Kinatok ko ang umuupa sa ibaba namin upang sila’y kamustahin. Pumasok na rin sa kanila ang tubig.

Napaupo ako sa hagdan at napagmamasdan ko si mercu na unti-unti nang lumulubog sa tubig-baha. Nabalik na lang ako sa ulirat nang daglian nang umaakyat sa amin ang mga batang anak ng umuupa sa amin. May kalong pang sanggol ang pinakapanganay sa kanila. Hanggang sa lahat kami ay unti-unti nang napaakyat sa hagdan ng paatras dahilan sa patuloy na pagtaas na tubig. Umabot ang tubig sa aming hagdanan. Mayroon kaming labintatlong palapag mula sa mismong pinto ng bahay at ang tanging kita sa mga sandaling yaon ay walo habang nakalutang ang mga di-naisalbang gamit ng mga nakatira sa amin. Hinanap namin ang kanilang ina. Ito raw ay nagpunta sa palengke kanina pang umaga. Napatingin ako sa aking tiya sabay upo na lamang sa sofa at pagbating ang cute ng sanggol nila. Sa mga oras na yon, mula sa aming bintana wala na akong matanaw na lupa...

Halos 6 hanggang 7 pulgada ang lalim ng baha. Hindi ko na nakikita si mercu at pati ang mga nakasabit na halaman sa likod-bahay namin. Ang nakikita ko na lamang ay ang tolda sumisilong sa mga ito. Ang lalaking kapitbahay naming ay palangoy nang naglilipat ng mga gamit sa katabi nilang bahay. Nasa isang compound kasi sila kagaya namin. Walang tigil ang ulan...buong barangay ay para nang lumulutang sa ilog-marikina. Nagtext ang ilang kaibigan at ibinalitang may special segment na raw ang Marikina sa mga news programs. Doon ko na nasabi sa sarili ko, kakaiba na nga ang bahang ito. Isa-isa kong binalikan ang heograpiya ng aming lugar. Isa kasi kami sa matataas na lugar dito sa aming bayan. Kung gayon paano na kaya ang mga bahay sa ilog na nakita ko kagabing umuuwi ako? May mga stranded na raw sa mga karatig bayan tulad ng pasig, taguig, rizal at iba pa. Mga bandang hapon, buong kamaynilaan ay nasa state of calamity na raw.

Humahanap ako noon ng dahilan kung bakit biglaang nangyari ang kalamidad na ito. Tuluyan na kayang nagalit ang mga mitong sirena sa ilog-marikina sa pambabastos na ginagawa ng mga tao rito? Kaya sila nagpasyang gumanti naman, kahit one time lang? Ito na rin kaya yung pinag-uusapan namin dati ng isang kaibigang naibahagi ang pananaliksik niya tungkol sa 2012 event na may mga aliens na darating, tapos may mga calamities na mangyayari at mga ilan pang mga bagay na hindi ko na inalala kasi nga nakakatakot. O wala lang...nangyari lang siya talaga? Para kasing hahanapan mo ng paliwanag ang matinding pag-ulan ng humigit-kumulang na anim na oras ay katumbas ang isang buwang pag-ulan! Paano nangyari yon? Bakit nangyari yon? At napakarami pang ‘yon’ na ikinapagod ko na. Tumingin na lamang ako sa langit saka ko ibinulong “Ondoy, tahan na...”

Sa aking panaginip, nakita ko si Ondoy. Alam kasi ata ng isip ko na lumilikha ako ng kanyang imahen. Nakita ko siya bilang isang batang nakasuot ng tila sa pamprinsipe. May kahabaan ang kanyang buhok, maputing kutis at napakaaliwalas na mukha. Iwinawasiwas niya ang kanyang kamay sa isang batis na may damong matayog at itim na buhangin. Malungkot siya o nababagot, hindi ko masyadong mawari. Hindi rin ako sigurado kung may hinihintay siya. Hanggang sa may isang kamay na tumapik sa kanyang balikat at may nagwikang, “Ondoy, halika na.” Ito na marahil yung tinatawag sa drama sa TV na si ‘Bro’ kasi ganoon ko rin siya nakita sa eksena. Nagising ako, humupa na ang baha.

Alas tres ng madaling araw, nakita ko nang kalung-kalong nang inang umuupa sa aming silong ang sanggol. Ngayon lamang daw siya nakauwi gawa nang humupa na nga ang baha. Dali-dali kong tiningnan ang mga baitang ng aming bahay at muli ko nang nasisilayan ang mga ito. Kumpleto na pero pulos putik na. “Mabuti na rin ito” batid ko. “Kaysa naman sa tao ang nakikita ko.” Mula sa mga oras na iyon, gising na ang lahat ng mga tao at kanya-kanya na ang paglilinis ng kani-kanilang mga bakuran. Hindi iniinda ang lamlam ng tanawin at masangsang na amoy ng kapaligiran.

Masuwerte pa rin ang San Roque dahil sa karumal-dumal na nangyari ay ligtas ang lahat at tanging mga gamit at bahagi ng kabahayan ang nasalanta. Walang humihingang bagay ang kinitil ang isang talampakang baha. Huwag na sanang muling malungkot ang iba pang mga bagyo at iwasiwas muli ang kanilang mga kamay sa batis...sana’y maramdaman na ng mga mitong sirena na naging patas na sila sa mapang-abusong mga tao sa kanila at sana, teorya na lang ang pananaliksik ng aking kaibigan tungkol sa 2012...gusto ko na uli makita ang pinakalmalinis na bayan sa lungsod ng maynila at hindi ang pinakamarumi at malungkot na siyudad ng bansa.

Bro...pakitapik naman na sila lahat ngayon pa lang.

Salamat.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

a "Little" Film


A sequel to the successful “Babae”. A story about masculinity, love, and family. A touching and humorous look at the maturation of a provincial boy and his blooming romance.

30 min
Short Film


Starring:

Paul Santiago as Jose/Little

Andro Morgan as Itok

Written and Directed By: Sigrid Andrea P. Bernardo



Director of Photography: Alma dela Peña

Producers: Alma dela Peña
Sigrid Andrea P. Bernardo
Lorna Paguirigan
Teresita dela Peña


Production Design Team: Lorna Sanchez
Ram Tolentino

Make-up: Ram Tolentino

Editors: Jom Tolentino
Tara Illenberger

Music: Paul Peña

Lyrics of “Ngayon ang Pinaunang Araw”: Vim Nadera

Assistant Director/ Prod Manager: Lorna Sanchez

English Translation: Krystal Banzon
Subtitles: Nayna Katigbak

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Living out of the Box


Since I chose Theatre as my course in college, I anticipated a life taht breaks in the circle of daily living. It has brought me to a world where passion and skills would squeezw you on both ends and ties you to everything that could make your being into a more humane state--feeling the hurt, happiness, love, success, failure and freedom. All of these packed in a single bag that I carry while taking my journey outside of the box which I once dreamt of getting in. I have been curious to what that box inside looks like...how it feels to be there. When I was younger, and thought the bag that I carry's getting empty, I fearlessly tried opening it. I hoped for a better atmosphere and better way of breathing. But I was surprised whan I finally saw its opening and touched its very sole. But I was disappointed. It was an empty; hallow space full of darkness and discord. there were no light of fulfillment, no songs of joy and absent of love to people who lives in it.


After what I saw, I thought, "Is this the life that people tend to choose after they had lived outside?" I feel I have to go out as soon as possible before I get drown and never see my own self again. Before I left, I checked my bag if tehre was something that was added but fortunately none from this sinking world was put in. The experience has given me more strength to continue the journey outside of the box; to endlessly fulfill a destiny of a broken but interceotive circle of my own daily pursuit--without doubt but full of courage, without numerous queations but full of experienced answers taht will help me to go on.


I have just been travelling on about a quarter side outside and not even getting to the top cover. I was just restless and needed rest to become better. And thank God, I did...

Now I'm fulfilled.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

The "L" of my Misery


What happened this weekend just has to happen...it came crashing through all of what I was avoiding to be in my life for the past years that I am breathing. I became the not-so me when it happened. I let the situation take the command and before I knew it, I was in the deepest, catastrophical state which I can't get out! I swam in the mud sea, run away from the forest of evil and drank the pees of the fallen angels. I was trapped when I became human and died at the same time to be the best angel there was during the wee hours of the night.

The day after that, I felt I was a trash in the bed...stinking and has been forgotten to be laundered. Then I had to face my colleagues and seeing them in exuberant out of being all together, I decided to keep the dirt with myself. But If something is smelling bad, it will come out. The day finished with us doing our usual take-offs as mid-quarter individuals and foreseeing the following day in a brighter light. But it was different for me...I thought to myself, "why rejoice when you know you can never be clean again?" But one of those dearest co-existent in the restless life saw what I was going through. He didn't ask but I felt it was the right time for me to explode. Explode like a candle slowly dying, losing its power to light his own existence. I began talking to him.

It was just a short exchange of life-bugging realities. It was time to go to our lairs and reset what was done. When I was on my way home, I realized that whatever has happened it wan't because of me or those culprits of miseries but the life which I insistingly fighting for. It was becoming unappealing to my system, to others and to the whole living economy that I know of. I had to act fast before it was too late and die as a living idea of pure and excessive misery. I don't want that and I was never like that before what had happened.

Losing and finding myself is just like a monthly check-up of my sanity. And this life which slowly kills the whole system or idea of my breathing has to die! I don't have to die, but it has to...it must kill itself so misery is ended. Sanity is revived. Love to live.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Welcome Back...real world! Hell, where are you? come out, comeout wherever you are...


And so did I. After the success of my production, I'm back in the real world...

Facts. Trivias. Lies. Hopes.

All of them have grown so well since the last time I saw them.

Better get on my feet and start killing them.

I love blood...I hate love.

Cuddle.

Shot.

Death-------

is a very wonderful state while breathing.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

VIRGIN LABFEST 5

untried. untested. unproduced plays
Writer's Bloc & Tanghalang Pilipino

SET A: School of Life (Mga Dulang Walang Pinag-aralan)
June 23: 3pm, 8pm
July 4: 8pm
July 5: 3pm

MPC by Job Pagsibigan, to be mounted by the SipatLawin Ensemble

Ang Huling Lektyur ni Misis Reyes by Tim Dacanay
directed by Hazel Gutierrez

Isang Mukha ng Pandaraya by Oggie Arcenas
directed by Roli Inocencio


SET B: It's Complicated (The Buhul-Buhol Trilogy)
June 24: 3pm, 8pm
July 3: 8pm
July 4: 3pm

Salise by J. Dennis Teodosio
directed by Roobak Valle

Ang Mamanugangin ni Rez by Clarissa Estuar
directed by Paolo O'Hara

So Sangibo A Ranon Na Piyatay O Satiman A Tadman by Rogelio Braga
directed by Riki Benedicto


SET C: Blood Sports (Trilohiyang Dinuguan )
June 25: 3pm, 8pm
July 3: 3pm
July 5: 8pm

Kitchen Medea by Kiyokazu Yamamoto, directed by Yoshida Toshihisa

Doc Resurrecion: Gagamutin ang Bayan by Layeta Bucoy
directed by Tuxqs Rutaquio

Asawa/Kabit by George de Jesus III, directed by George de Jesus III


SET D: The Family That _______s Together (Tatlong Dulang Walang Diyos)
June 26: 3pm, 8pm
June 30: 3pm
July 2: 8pm

Boy-Girl ang Gelpren ni Mommy by Sheilfa Alojamiento
directed by Carlo Pacolor Garcia

Maliw by Reuel Molina Aguila
directed by Edna Vida

Cherry Pink and Apple Blossom White by George Vail Kabristante
directed by Paul Santiago


SET E: Life is a Trap (Three Plays in Search of Escape)
June 27: 3pm, 8pm
June 30: 8pm
July 1: 3pm

Isang Araw sa Peryahan by Nicolas B. Pichay
directed by Chris Millado

Paigan by Liza Magtoto
directed by Sigrid Bernardo

Hate Restaurants by David Finnigan, directed by J. Victor Villareal


The Virgin Labfest 4 Revisited
June 28: 3pm, 8pm
July 1: 8pm
July 2: 3pm

Ang Kalungkutan ng mga Reyna, written and directed by Floy Quintos

Ang Bayot, Ang Meranao at ang Habal-Habal sa Isang Nakababagot na Paghihintay sa Kanto ng Lanao del Norte by Rogelio Braga
directed by Nick Olanka

Uuwi na ang Nanay kong si Darna, Job Pagsibingan’s adaptation of Uuwi na ang Nanay Kong si Darna by Edgar Samar, directed by Catherine Racsag



STAGED READINGS
Bulwagang Amado Hernandez (Conference room)

June 25, 6pm
Kataksilan, Tim Dacanay’s adaptation and direction of Harold Pinter's Betrayal

June 27, 6pm
Noong Minsan May Nanungkulan sa San Lazaro, Joshua Lim So’s adaptation of Alfred Jarry's Ubu Roi
directed by Dennis Marasigan

June 30, 6pm
Breakups and Breakdowns by Joel Trinidad, directed by himself

July 1, 6pm
SPIT improvisational session

July 3, 6pm
Creative Writing Workshop showcase (Facilitator: Glenn Sevilla Mas)

July 5, 6pm
American Huangup
directed by Chris Millado


BOOK LAUNCHING: VIRGIN LABFEST ANTHOLOGY
June 23, 6pm Little Theater

The anthology, which includes 15 plays from years 1-4 of the Virgin Labfest, will be launched on the opening day of the Virgin Labfest. The following plays are included:

Year 1
Rite of Passage by Glenn Sevilla Mas
Geegee at Waterina by J. Dennis Teodosio

Year 2
Ang Unang Aswang by Rody Vera
The Palanca In My Mind by Job Pagsibigan
Tres Ataques de Corazon (The Angina Monologues) by Nicolas Pichay
Hubad by Liza Magtoto and Rody Vera

Year 3
Mga Obra ni Maestra by Njel de Mesa
Three Sisters: Isang Noh by Yoji Sakate
Teroristang Labandera by Debbie Ann Tan
Ellas Inosentes by Layeta Bucoy

Year 4
Pamantasang Hirang by Tim Dacanay

Dong-Ao by F. Sionil Jose

Masaganang Ekonomiya by Allan Lopez

Ang Bayot, Ang Meranao at ang Habal-Habal sa Isang Nakababagot na Paghihintay sa Kanto ng Lanao del Norte by Rogelio Braga

Ang Kalungkutan ng mga Reyna by Floy Quintos


Tickets to the Virgin Labfest are at P200 for main exhibition sets, P100 for the symposium and "Pay what you can" for play readings. For more details, please contact Tanghalang Pilipino at 8323661, or the CCP Box Office at 8323704.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Getting in the Reality


After a very all of what is there to do and achieve for the options that came for the past months in my life, I have successfully chosen what could be the best...and that is to stay here in manila and fulfill what I have always wanted. The other option would have been great if not for a lifetime adjustment that I have to be in. I am not ready for that. my life is just starting to fulfill a goal which I have pictured since I was young in the field I am into. Though the latter promises a greater feeling of nobility as a person which I always wanted to be but then again, life is never the same as before and getting to walk alone in this never ending "path-less travelled" route showed me a unique horizon that only a few (including me) has seen.

I am not sacrificing my passion but rather better fulfilling it in a more practical and suitable manner. This, my friend i s an act of maturity in a reality that life has offered me.